BROKEN HEART

I know the days still have to go like it used to be.
I know that I have to move one.
I know I have to start where I was before I met him.
I know everything has changed and I have to struggle.
Though, it is hard.
And, I still feel the same. :)


I never stopped loving him. I just stopped showing him.

Being 20 isn't that bad, I reckon :)

I have never guessed that my 20th birthday would be the best day of my life. You probably ask why.

Well, first thing, my family wouldn’t be able to sit next to me while I blew the 31st of March candle.

Second thing, that week was an almost finished midterm exams which meant that there wouldn’t be too many people around at my faculty and that sucked to realized I almost had nobody that hug and shake my hand while wishing me a very happy birthday.

And the very last thing but not least, that also a pain to hear that Pahmi couldn’t even make to sing a happy birthday in front of me either.




Wow! Congratulations! Seemed that I would spend my special day alone in my room and wishing me a very happy birthday by myself (those rings from family and friends and some texts would be the exception, though).




Late 30 March 2010,

Me and thifa was playing around in my room waiting for Indah finished her assignments. At that time, we were going to go karaoke. The time was 09.00 pm. Yet, Indah said that it took another hour to finish her assignments Ok, meaning that we would go at 10.00 pm. I didn’t mind, but I was thinking that there wouldn’t be a surprise go for me in Nav because normally the surprise is held at home. Well, I was being tricked. The whole things I thought didn’t happen at all.

Well, we went to karaoke at 10.00pm until 12.am and suddenly a minute before we really finished singing….




THEY MADE A SURPRISE for my birthday!!

My friends and the one that I didn’t expect to come, Pahmi!!

I was really really surprised and I suddenly jumped like a little kid because I was really really happy.




Thank you everybody.:)

I even got two surprises. The one I got at 12.00 am and the next one I got in the afternoon with my amazing Pengmas and BEM’ers. :)


I learned one thing in my birthday,

I don’t know why it suddenly popped up in my brain.

I learned about gratitude of life. That everybody is given a different life and I have been surrounded by people who love me and I love.

And, I know I should be grateful to Allah for that.




Well, Being 20 isn’t that bad, I reckon. ;)







Thank you.