BROKEN HEART

I know the days still have to go like it used to be.
I know that I have to move one.
I know I have to start where I was before I met him.
I know everything has changed and I have to struggle.
Though, it is hard.
And, I still feel the same. :)


I never stopped loving him. I just stopped showing him.

Being 20 isn't that bad, I reckon :)

I have never guessed that my 20th birthday would be the best day of my life. You probably ask why.

Well, first thing, my family wouldn’t be able to sit next to me while I blew the 31st of March candle.

Second thing, that week was an almost finished midterm exams which meant that there wouldn’t be too many people around at my faculty and that sucked to realized I almost had nobody that hug and shake my hand while wishing me a very happy birthday.

And the very last thing but not least, that also a pain to hear that Pahmi couldn’t even make to sing a happy birthday in front of me either.




Wow! Congratulations! Seemed that I would spend my special day alone in my room and wishing me a very happy birthday by myself (those rings from family and friends and some texts would be the exception, though).




Late 30 March 2010,

Me and thifa was playing around in my room waiting for Indah finished her assignments. At that time, we were going to go karaoke. The time was 09.00 pm. Yet, Indah said that it took another hour to finish her assignments Ok, meaning that we would go at 10.00 pm. I didn’t mind, but I was thinking that there wouldn’t be a surprise go for me in Nav because normally the surprise is held at home. Well, I was being tricked. The whole things I thought didn’t happen at all.

Well, we went to karaoke at 10.00pm until 12.am and suddenly a minute before we really finished singing….




THEY MADE A SURPRISE for my birthday!!

My friends and the one that I didn’t expect to come, Pahmi!!

I was really really surprised and I suddenly jumped like a little kid because I was really really happy.




Thank you everybody.:)

I even got two surprises. The one I got at 12.00 am and the next one I got in the afternoon with my amazing Pengmas and BEM’ers. :)


I learned one thing in my birthday,

I don’t know why it suddenly popped up in my brain.

I learned about gratitude of life. That everybody is given a different life and I have been surrounded by people who love me and I love.

And, I know I should be grateful to Allah for that.




Well, Being 20 isn’t that bad, I reckon. ;)







Thank you.

:(

Mau belajar, males..
Mau bergerak, males..
Mau makan, males..

MAU LO APA KIT? hahaha

love sucks for me. For you?

I am asking you through my heart.
I am looking you through my heart.

I see things are just right in front of me.
But, hang on! Is that you again? you again?
Hmmfh.. I've been dealing with you in my heart and in my cognitive process.
I cannot take it away.
argh, I hate you.
Just go away.
and, may you have your own life, dude.
But..
You just came over and over againnnn.


Do i love you? or I dont?
It just seems right for me. :(


love sucks.

The Gullible Girl, I am ;)

a short conversation with my host family a few years ago showed how gullible I was. Well, it was not only happened in the past, but also still happening until present,
Kitty : "Mum, today i went to the city. Then, i saw a man was sitting in the floor. I saw money beside him like 20 cent n 50 cents, then i gave him a dollar. Then, he was so happy!! He said THANKS a couple of times,,"
Mum : "Mmm,,kitty, why did u give him the money?”
Kitty : "coz, i was so sorry to see him. He might be so sad or something like that."
Luke : "kitty, u`re such a strange girl!! "

Ok. I didnt understand why they told me like that. Then,,

Kitty : "Then, Mum, when i was waiting for the trem in the city, someone came into me. She was like 25 years old or something like that. Then, she cried in front of me. She said that she didn’t have money to go home. Then, i asked her, "what’s wrong with u??". She said that she broke up with her boyfriend and her boyfriend took everything from her. I was so sad Mum. What about if i were her? Maybe, I’m gonna jump into the yarra river n kill myself there. I was so sad to hear her story. Then, i gave her $2. She was so happy. Then, i was so happy to. But,,"
Mum : "What happened next??"
Kitty : "she got me!!! I mean, she didn’t tell the truth. She`s a liar. WhenI saw her again, She was like this, "Man,, where is everyone?? I’m finished!!!" I couldn’t believe it, Mum!!! HUH!!! And, she took her phone out and called her friends! She had a mobile phone."
Luke : "yeah, Kitty! I know!! I told u before! U`re a gullible girl. U believe everything what everyone said to you. Then, you waste your money now! You’re so strange."
Kitty : "But,,but,, I was so sad to hear the story. I was so sorry to hear that, Luke!! Mum, do you agree with me?"
Mum : "Unfortunately I don’t, kitty! You dont have to give your money to the stranger. They bought drugs from your money."
Luke :"then, you go to jail. Coz, you gave your money to a stranger to buy drugs!! hihii,,"
Kitty : "ohh,,,shut up Luke! I’m not gonna go to jail coz that stupid things, anyway."
Mum : "Ok, kitty n Luke. Stop it,, now, kitty, please stop giving your money to stranger. Ok, dear??"
Kitty : "Alright mum,, but,,"
Luke : "just stop say "but,,," you waste your money, gullible girl,,,"